Every day the itch to do something grows inside of me and i dont know how to effectively itch the itch. I find media and art that represents the itch, like this band's music, like the anime adaptation of Aku no Hana, like the character Togata from Fire Punch. But having someone else do the itch doesn't work,I need to itch it myself, but I dont know how.
I try to make my own music but its lonely on my own. I try go outside and play with worms but it's lonely on my own. I think about making my own representation of the itch, like a comic, but it won;t scratch it, just escapism like always.
So i go on an evening walk and feel the boredom and loneliness weigh on me and pull and pinch on my bottom eyelids and tickle my knuckles as I figure a path around the dog walkers and teenagers around me and that's it